I CAN'T

i have boyfriend now. I don't like him moreover love him. I just feel sorry.
I think he loves me so, i'm happy but i can't receive all this truth.
it's just waste my time to keep thinking.

i should be happy, i should not crying.
cz now, i've someone who will take care of me.
but i cannot. i cannot replay. i don't love him, i just love my friend. it's not just like but love.

i wanna tell him "lets break"
but i'm afraid he'll down.

What shall i do???

Jesus help me!
i hope i'll get the answer and i'll tell him :)