The love of my life

It's a long story.
It turns out that we were struggling :D

That was a beautiful night, and that was the most romantic night I ever felt.
First of all, thank you Jesus, the Author of my life story.

It was unexpected.
And I'm so glad, cause finally, it is worth to wait :)

That was the first time, I hug a guy. If I don't love him, I WOULD NEVER HUG HIM.

Haha....

I think, no one ever write novels about my love story. And one day, I'm going to book this. Amen.

My Favorite Song

One of my favorite songs from my favorite singer, Taylor Swift. I love this song, I love the music, the lyrics, the story behind it, the clip, the meaning, and many more. I hope you guys can enjoy it as I am :)

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do
I'm in my room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do
But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me, you belong with me
Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?
And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what you doing with the girl like that?
She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me
Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me
Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

The answer..

Thank you Jesus ({})
He finally call me, so excited!! His voice calm me down :)
Thanks God he's okay :)
Can't wait to meet him tomorrow. Yohoooo :)

Nightmare

Rejected by my close friends, they cut my hair as a punishment for me, and then I need my friends, but... so I don't care, this is very urgent and I'm trying to call him, and he's already there, and I want to back to my rent room, but he don't want to give me a ride if I don't tell the story, he's mad, cz they cut my hair, he wants to know who did this to me, but I don't want him to know, I promise to them not to tell anyone about this, and...
The papua comes and we're separated, I don't know where he is :(
I'm trying to find him, but I can't.. :'(

My drama

For all this time, I've tried my best, I went through the process, I've tried to make 'em proud and happy. And now what I've got, they disappoint me, they mad at me, they yell at me. This is so inappropriate. I'm tired to be patient :'(

Wonderful!

I just watched a movie "I'm in love with a church girl"
That was so amazing. Every details, He changed Miles' life, every challenges, everything that He has made.
You're so wonderful oh God.
So touching.

Now I know that, You always there for me.
I know that I'm weak, but I'm strong because of You.
Every problems that I have is the lessons for me to be a better person and get a better life, and I don't know, even words cannot explain how wonderful and beautiful You are.

You're amazing, Lord.
I'd like to leave everything for You, I trust You, I surrender. :)

Fighting!!! :D

They may judge me, they may hate me.
Yeah, that's the challenge :)
Life is too short to think about it. Really unimportant.
C'mon, just look ahead and be happy :)
Look at the good side, think positively.
I didn't do any bad things. But I know that bad things in this world is good things in our world. Why? Cause this world hate us.
So if there are many challenges for us, it's okay, just be as it should be. With God we can :)
Fighting!

God knows...

He knows everything about me.
Even when I'm sad and lonely, He's the only one who's with me, and the only one who knows the best way to cheer me up.
I'm so thankful that I have an awesome God.

I hope, he's worth to wait for.
I'll wait.
I believe that You have the best timing ever. :)

Have I already moved on?

I DON'T KNOW

I've tried to be strong. I've decided not to think or care about him anymore. I've already found someone new and better than him. But yesterday, he stared at me. I walked through him. I said hi to him, then he said again that I'm so arrogant. I walked straight away, and continued my conversation with my friend. I thought I won't care, but honestly I do care.

After all this time, I  finally realized that I've pretended that I didn't care anymore.

So the conclusion is I am not  a good actress.

Lying isn't my thing.

It's really hard for me.

I don't know what to do now. Should I keep pretending that I'm okay without him? Or? Give up? I don't know. Totally don't know.

Darl :(

And suddenly, you become my fave :*
I love it when your name is on the notification.
I dreamt about you, first you tried to catch me, second you left me alone, and it turned out that that day was your birthday and I don't even know.
It feels like I skip your birthday and you were trying to remind me.
Oh I'm so sorry.

If I could, I'd like to hug and kiss you babe :(

She don't know how to make friends.

She actually has friends, maybe more than mine. But, she has no best friend. Why?
Cause, she don't know how to treat her friends well.
Now, I understand why some of my friends doesn't like her.
Okay, she's easy to be friend, but she can't put up with it.
She's so full of egoism and so childish.
She can't even worth everyone that appreciate her, treat her well, but she never reply.

It's okay. I'm thankful, cause finally I realize.
I won't judge her, I made mistakes, so I think, I'm fine. Just, let her do what she wants to do.
Whatever, I won't care anymore.

I know, the reason why she never mad at me. It's all because of she needs me, because I'm important to her. I'm okay without her, but she's not.

I'm so thankful that I can be so important to someone.
Thank You God for everything. This is sucks at the first, but when I looked the positive side, this is awesome. Thank You Oh Lord, I love You :)

I need...

I need an offline blog :(
I wish I could have one for my gadget.
The internet connections here are so slow. I can't stand a slow connection.

Where can I find that app?
Huft...

And suddenly, all the love songs were about you

The first time I felt this, I think I Love You by Avril Lavigne
then we're getting closer. Lebih Indah by Adera sounds good.
After that you broke my heart, you give me hope but you didn't prove it, or maybe I just expected more from you, I hear Cold as You by Taylor Swift.
And when I think this is my One Last Cry (covered by Sabrina) I know I have to end this. I have to focus on my study.
Then there's someone else. He asked me to be his girl. I've already accepted it, but it makes me crazy till now, I know he's not the one that I want. It's sucks to lie. I'm not a fake. I don't love him (I don't love you by MCR)
And someone new just appear, he's so awesome. I think he's my destiny. I know it's not the time yet. I don't expect something about him, cz I know if we're fated to be together, we'll be. He's just so far away now, and I will fly by d'cinnamon.
But then, you came again, you ask me my number. I will give you but I wish you ask me twice. You just gave up, you didn't ask twice. And I'm so regret that I didn't give you when you ask first.
That time, I need you so much. I wish you can be my reason to ignore him, but... Yeah, I lose a chance again :(
And then I'm think of you again, I know Imma Fool Again by Westlife.
But I give my trusts to Him and When You Believe :)

I Don't Know Who You Are But You're With Me

That was amazing oh Lord :)
Thank you for everything that You have given to me
I love You my Lord Jesus.

When I lose them, You give one that better than them, and last night was amazing.
I won't expect anything from him, I just want to be friends, but if I can be more than friends, I'll love it.

People come, people go.
But I trust God, I know He'll always give me the best and I wish I can do the best for Him.

I won't count my worries anymore, but my blessings.

2014

I'm new :)

this year, I just wanna focus on my service and my study.
That's all. I'm done :D