Campus Life

I don't know what to say.
I came here to study hard.
My parents don't know what am I doing here.

I have new friends,
First, I thought, it would be easy, but now it's not that easy anymore. It's complicated.

Even words can't explain :(

I hope too much :(

I'm so jealous!!!
Someone just stole him from me :'(

Cmon, I don't like it. Whatever, I don't care if this is love!

The other man

I don't know him yet. He's one of my senior, and first time I saw him, just like the other senior. I like his friend, the handsome one :D

But then, I don't know why, when we became friend in a social media, something just happened, we're closer now (I don't mean any*closer*thing), just like brother and sister, but I felt something, I love tweeting with him, and sometimes, when I found, he's tweeting with someone else, I mean a junior girl, what I felt is a little bit jealous, then I write some status, and hoping that he would reply, oh my yay -.-
What happen?

And I was very happy, when he ask me to hang out. I don't wanna hope too much, so I just wanna think that it was a joke, just a joke :(

Cmon, he's better than that boy before this post.
He is a gentlemen :)

And better be my brother -.-

The other man

I don't know him yet. He's one of my senior, and first time I saw him, just like the other senior. I like his friend, the handsome one :D

But then, I don't know why, when we became friend in a social media, something just happened, we're closer now (I don't mean any*closer*thing), just like brother and sister, but I felt something, I love tweeting with him, and sometimes, when I found, he's tweeting with someone else, I mean a junior girl, what I felt is a little bit jealous, then I write some status, and hoping that he would reply, oh my yay -.-
What happen?

And I was very happy, when he ask me to hang out. I don't wanna hope too much, so I just wanna think that it was a joke, just a joke :(

Cmon, he's better than that boy before this post.
He is a gentlemen :)

And better be my brother -.-

Someone new just appear :D

omgay!!! :D

There is someone,
just a new friend in university.
He's adorable and handsome, but...

oh my gay again! :D

I think he likes me,
he want to know me deeper,
but, his way, cmon! so wrong!

I finally knew, this is a boy, not a guy.

so childish! arhh...

physicly, you are good enough for me, but I knew from the way you talk, the way you text, and the way you look at me, you are a trouble.

And, you came at a right time, I want to play with trouble now xD

I wanna win this game.
let's have fun xD

Bad Guy

Now, I'm looking for a bad guy.
Cz, according to my research (hehe :D)
Bad guys is not bad at all,
You know, everything happens for a reason, and they become bad for a reason.

Bad guys always treat their girls right, they'll do everything for someone they love.

I'm not looking for a kind boy anymore, but a bad guy (y)

One more heartbreaker :(

From now on, don't hope too much, but always do the best.

Everything happens for a reason, and the reason why I'm afraid to fall in love is a heartbreaker.

A goodlooking man, doesn't mean he had a goodlooking heart too.

So, again, from now on, I won't looking for a guy with my eyes, but with my faith :)

Just wanna give it to Him, cz everything is gonna be alright in God hands O:)

Lonely :(

No boyfriend??? It's okay.

But no bestfriend??? It sucks :(

Where's my bestfriends? 

It feels like I don't have any.

I miss 'em so bad.

I miss my high school moment with them,

I just saw my pictures with them and those pictures has its stories.

(sorry for my grammar)

My super best friend was so far away from me, 

it means, we won't hang out, or shopping, or sharing, etc.

What is this feeling?

I had a dream about him.

who is it?

he's my type.
that time, I thought he was almost perfect, but I already realized, he is a jerk! he is a player!

last night I've been dreaming about him.
And guess what?!
I enjoyed that dream, when something waking me up, I just close my eyes again and hope for my dream to be continue.
I want to spend my time with him, but finally, my mom wake me up, and I just want that dream again.

I just,
Why? God? Why?

I've got some new things

Big thanks for my dearest God, and mom :)

Trust me, I won't make you regret to bought me these :)
I'll study hard and I'll try hard to finish my study erlier than anyone, and I don't want to be the third or the second student, but now, my desire is to be the number one!

And, cause now I have my laptop, it's time to re-decorate this blog.

Yippie :)

YooHoo !!!!

Guess who have a new laptop now?!

Haha, it's me :)

Thanks Lord :*

I'm just... exciting :)

something has happened.

something tastes like a good news, like a valentine's chocolate :)

So exciting... :D

for a long time, finally this really happened :)

thank you Jesus o:)

Something better come in :)

thanks God, You make it :)

I think, it's all better now :)
really, I can't explain, thanks very much :')

Feelings are not allowed

Imma easily impressed person, so when someone can do some things that so cool for me, I'd like it very much and I'd like to be a secret admirer, but there's no feeling. Cause feelings are not allowed!
Why? Cause it would be so dangerous for me.

As you know, if I'm fall for someone, I'll love him right, and then I'll... headache, stomachache, heartache.

That would be so complicated :/

Present from a boy!

I want a hamster!!!

Everything's gonna be okay in God's hand :)

Sad news guys..
about the university I choosed,
I have two option of university, the first is UGM, and the second is Unima.

I expected to more to be accepted in Gajah Mada University. So, I have to accept this hurts too.
I know now, the feeling when you are rejected.

And you already love that things or people.

Now, I'm feeling really sorry, for some guy that have been rejected by me.

But, It's okay.
Maybe this isn't my way.

He has His beautiful plan for me.

I just wanna live my life now.
And do my best, so I won't regret next time :)

Thanks God :*

University oh university -_-

english education??? No!!!

I'm looking for a university that has computer accounting major in it.

I already explore the internet and now I got it.

Binus University.
but... it's all about money :(

another?

Unikom.
No way!

so confusing -.-

Waiting for my driver's licence

My driving instructor said, "If you already have the driver's licence, don't drive to fast ya"

Haha...
Aye aye captain! :D
I'll try :D

Good bye means forgetting

That's why I won't say good bye.

I don't want to forget them, all my friends, all the memories, I just wanna say, I'LL MISS YOU guys, I will really miss high school.

These troubles makes me stronger

I've learn something.

Thank You God,
In every troubles, I've learn something.

Maybe that "something" can help me for the next trouble.

Thank God

Bru" skali ta bca d twitter ad org p status ttg dpe mslh. Ta nda m blg dsni ap dpe mslh, yg psti qt nda pernah alami itu dg mnurut qt itu berat skali.

Dlm hti seakan" blg, "bca bae bae itu christy, ttp msh ad org yg dpe mslh lbe berat dr ng, hrusnya ng bersyukur"

Lengkali qt so nda ja lia org laeng, qt cma pkir klo cma qt tu da mslh, smpe org laeng blh jd korban, qt mrsa klo qt p hdop itu tu pling siksa, bnya mslh yg dtg. Trnyata kte, bkan cma qt, justru ad yg lbe dri qt.

Dri stu qt sdar, qt hdop nda cma sndri...

Thank you very much Lord Jesus. :)

Her words never help

Ask her? No more!
Better I ask mr. Google

Troubles?

I think friends or love problem is easier than family problem.

I can't run away.

I can't hiding

I can't do anything.

Just praying to God.
I hope Gajah Mada University will accept me.

Even words can't explain. She's so......... I don't know! I can't describe it with words! I just, don't like the way she teach me. She wants me to do everything she want. Actually, it was okay. But I really really don't like her method. Don't you ever think, "what should i do to make my daughter become a good woman?" Don't you ever think about that mom? You always teach me crudely. You don't want to change your strategy? If I were you mom, I would teach my children softly, and would be patient if they do something wrong, and would talk to them then show what things that should they do. You have to thank God. Cause if I'm like the other teens, maybe I know how to smoking, how to drink alcohol, how to have sex, etc. And maybe live with it. You have to thank God mom! Because of Him, my eyes can see clearly what should I do and shouldn't do. Because of I love him so much, I became smarter, wise and better than you know!

Should have a try!

This drama was so awesome!
So, I recommended to you guys :)

What are you trying to do mr?

You just hang out with them, you play with them, what else?
You act like them!

Why?

You think it would makes me impressed?
You wrong darl, you know, I miss the old you.
How about to be yourself?
To be loved by me?

You don't have to do what they do,
You don't have to act that you liked all their likes,
You don't have to be like them!
If you want me, don't act like that!

Me and Taylor Swift

I guess, I have a lot in common with Taylor Swift.

That's why I like her.

We have the same taste of boys,
I love Joe Jonas, Taylor Lautner and Harry Styles.
Even, we ever fall in love with a boy called Joe.

She likes sparkles, me too.
She shows her feeling into the lyrics, I show it into my blog.

I Love You, Panda :')

Don't know why :(

I Saw Him

In the theatre, he was with his friends, me too. Watching a drama :'(

I was never wondering, that I would meet him again. I dunno why, the movie was end, my tears was end, but when I saw him, it fell again.

Hey someone there, someone I called my panda, you know? I miss you so much.

No one could replace you in my heart. Maybe it's hypo, but this is what i feel.

You, the one who makes me insane, crazier, the one who makes me laugh alone, and talk in front of the mirror, talk to myself certainly. 

Really, crazier because of you my old panda, and my first.

For this 5 years, I still can't find someone better who will replace you :(

God knows all

Now I know the feel. Feeling, when you down, when someone makes you looks worst, when you let your image broke, when some people mad at you, thinking that you were a fake, when you lose, when you can't look after yourself, when you can't say anything for the kindness, when you judged by 2 people you don't like, when you become the under girl, etc.

Darling, it was hurt. I feel now, what Jesus felt that time, the pain. Jesus, I'm gonna cry, but thank you so much. Maybe this time, We lose, but at the end, I believe He will makes me win more than a winner.

Lord, You know all. I surrender to You. Give me the strenght, the power and the holy spirit to face this all.

Thank You for everything :*

About my first love

I just read my post in my first blog. It was about my first love.
Almost crying when I read it :')
So memorable. :)
Beautiful!

I miss that guy :D

I want to meet him again. but I'm not sure. Maybe I can fall again :D

I don't know why I love him so much. It's the power of love, perhaps :D

I don't want to erase those memories. Too beautiful to forget.

Hey, someone there, where you are. what are you doing? you remember me? you remember our memories? our jhs? you know? I miss you so much.

I want to talk to you. But... It can't be :(

I still remember your full name, your birthday, your class, your face. How are you now?

No one can change my heart, although I have someone new, you still have your place. :)
Thanks so much for everything you gave. All those happiness, pain and love. :)